It hurts
It hurts more than it hurt yesterday
And I'm feeding the pain with what it wants;
More.
I'm not looking over my shoulder anymore,
I'm not looking at a knife with a sparkle in my eye like I did before
But I'm emotionally torturing myself
And I think I'm doing it on purpose
Because to be honest for once,
I think I like it.
It's better than nothing, I guess.
But what more can I say than,
"I'm confused"
I'm confused about the controversy of me and you
Why does it have to be so hard?
Why a puzzle?
Why a riddle?
Why a myth?
Or some fucking labrynth
Whatever you want to call it,
It's all the same.
So I'm listening to my heartbeat
Starting off slow,
Gaining speed,
Increasing momentum
Striking a leak
Or burning at the seams
I'm shrieking
I'm shrieking on the inside
Because I'm too shallow to let it out
That gasp of air and breath that could make it all better
Because in all honesty
If all I can do to be near you is torture myself
I'll put myself near death.
I write poems like this alot.
i've got other poems like this, mostly revolving around the same theme, different ideas of it but you probaby get the point XD